Shut down

Since my last blog post, I've felt very shut down. All of my energy was focused on the Portage Park art fair. I was desperately trying to ignore both my mom's birthday and her one year anniversary (that landed on the Sunday of the fair). Then, once the fair was over, I was just drained. I've had zero motivation. Gabe's birthday party is this weekend and I have almost nothing ready. I feel very badly about it too.

I don't know how to jump start things. I have a few orders for Beans, but they are people I know so I'm kinda dragging my ass making them (sorry Lori, pat and Anicia). I kinda cleaned the hose last weekend, but there's still a lot to do. I hope this funk ends soon. I don't like this feeling and yet I can't shake it off.


-jen

I have a blog?

I know. I almost forgot that I used to blog too. I miss it some days, but I am pretty short on time these days. A lot has changed since I last blogged in July.

* scaredy cat gabe rode rides at Santa's Village









* gabe also loved being on a boat in Lake Geneva. He wouldn't get in the water, but he absolutely loved the boat.








*my little brother got married!





* we went to the fountains at millennium park a few times








*gabe started 3 year old preschool (and loves it!)



I really hope I'll be able to start blogging more regularly again. I'm kinda busy preparing for two craft shows I have coming up (come and say hi!) and having a one year old (the kid I nanny) doesn't leave a whole lot of extra time. But, my goal is to try and blog during nap time. Let's hope it works! Have a great Tuesday!

-jen

I have the mean kid

Yep. It's official. I have the bully, the mean kid, the kid that other parents don't want their kids to be around. (Ok, that hasn't happened...yet).

Gabe has pushed baby L down since he started standing. Hell, even when he was sitting. After he pushes poor baby L down, he does this crazy, evil laugh. If I'm in the kitchen, I know what's happening just from gabe's laugh. I've tried time out. I've warned him. I've threatened taking things away. I've even taken away the iPad for the day. This hasn't deterred Gabe.

We had our annual 3rd of July party. There were tons of kids. Gabe pushed miles down, laughed crazily and then looked at miles' mom and said "I did that". WTF?! Seriously. My kid can be such a sweetheart and then so evil. Should I be worried? Any suggestions?
-jen

Much better

***I could not publish this post with any pictures! My app kept saying they were not able to be uploaded***


I haven't blogged since that crazy post a few weeks ago. I have calmed down since then. I realized my family is the most important thing and I need to put them first. Getting a tattoo or having crazy hair isn't going to change anything in the long run. it would be like retail therapy, at the moment it feels good, but then you're left with buyers remorse and an empty wallet.


Gabe and I have been having a ton of adventures with baby L. We have been to the zoo a handful of times and met up with friends at different parks. This is going to be one fun summer!





-jen

lost

I was originally going to write this post as my last post. I don't have the time to blog lately. I was also disappointed with the way the pictures were coming out when I blogged from my app on my phone or iPad.  However, sitting here, I am just overwhelmed with how lost I have been feeling lately.

I asked Jorge today about the possibility of moving, like moving far away, even if it's just for a year or two. I feel like nothing is here for me. Yes, I like my job, but it's not really what I want. Yes, I have friends, but it's hard to hang out sometimes because we all lack babysitters. My dad is moving to Florida in a month.  Tim and I are close, but not like hang out kinda close. I have never been one to have wanderlust, but I have something right now.

Or maybe I want to dye my hair and shave half my head. Or maybe I want to get a chest tattoo. Or maybe I just want to be able to travel and not move. I just don't know. The funny thing is, I have been going out with friends more, Jorge and I even went out on a date last night. I guess I just want something DIFFERENT, I just don't know what.