Love/Hate the Internet

I really love the Internet because it has helped me reconnect with old friends and make new ones. Although I resisted Facebook at first, I wouldn't have reconnected with my best friend from high school, and Vicky, whom I have known since we were four. I hope that Facebook will help me get new of my new business to more people. Speaking of my new business, there wouldn't be a business if it weren't for the partnering of me and Alli. I wouldn't know Alli if it weren't for instagram. Jorge thought that we were crazy for meeting. {who meets people in person that they are friends with on instagram?} But now, she is one of my closest friends.




I hate the Internet because I feel like I have ADD when I'm online. I can only be on certain sites, for a short amount of time, until I'm bored. I struggled to get PayPal to work, and shit like that just makes me feel stupid and frustrated. A few years ago, I even got in a fight with a friend because of Facebook.





I hardly ever let Molly and conor {the kids I nanny} be on the computer, or even watch tv, but gabe is on the iPad constantly. I have mixed feelings on that too. I know that he is learning {most of the time}, but I also worry that he isn't using his imagination as much.

Anyone else have a love/hate relationship with the Internet or technology?
-jen

A few reasons why I miss mom

I know that my mom is here in spirit. I know that she's looking over me and gabe. However, it's not the same.

Most days, I do really well. I do have huge moments when I feel overwhelmed, and sad and empty. I don't know if most of you know, but my mom was my best friend. I told her {almost} everything. A bad day at work, call mom. Gabe is driving me nuts, call mom. A surprise elimination on Project Runway, call mom. Sunday dinners were mostly spent in the kitchen talking to mom.

Also, I don't always trust my gut instincts and my mom was always there to reassure me. Yes, of course I am a grown up and should make my own decisions, and I guess I'm going to have to do that from now on. I've just never been very confident about things.

There are also some things that I'm upset that she's going to miss. Last year, she got sick around thanksgiving. We had talked about having a day full of cookie baking at our new house. Sidney and I could picture it before we had even moved in. Now, Sidney, gabe and I will have to have the memory without her and that makes me really, really sad.

Thank you everyone for all of your love and support in these past few weeks (and for the weeks to come).

-jen

Final installment

I'm sure you all are getting bored of gabe's birthday party pictures. BUT...I saved the best for last! Later in the evening, after almost all of the kiddos had gone home (and there were ALOT of kiddos), there was a little alcohol involved. I think everyone deserved it!



























Well......maybe there was a little too much alcohol for somebody. But he has been super great and super supportive so he deserved it.

-jen

Part two

Gabe's awesome birthday photo dump continues! Seriously, I think planning this party was a great way to deal with my loss and stress. I do think mom would have wanted me to have it. I asked her while she was in the hospital and she said "it's not like I'm going to haunt you" so I took that as a go-ahead. I think it was pretty successful, and that people had a good time.




Alli and I


Of course there had to be a piñata!








Gabe got to be apart of uncle javi's photo shoot!


Vicky and I





Bill and Jacob


Future Christmas card?
-jen

Wordless Wednesday

This will be part one of gabe's birthday party. It was kinda awesome. I was sad, of course, that mom wasn't there, but for gabe and everyone who came I think it was good. His theme was construction site, although if you ask him he will say it was a princess party (hahahaha!)


























-jen