Remember

There are those moments that I have to remember. I put gabe to sleep tonight, then went downstairs and wasted hours in front of the tv. I could have been upstairs cuddling with him instead.

Lately, I've been sitting him in front of the tv or giving him the iPad so that I could make Beans. When the day is over, I don't always feel like I accomplished something. More days I start to feel bad because I overlooked the most important thing to me. Gabe.

These moments won't last long. Wanting to 'nuggle' on the couch and have mama read books to him, those moments will be gone before I know it. I've got to step back, reevaluate, and get my priorities in order. Getting Beans made should not come before gabe. I've got to remember that he's only this age for right now, tomorrow he will be a little older. Soon he won't want to snuggle, or play together or even leave his room. Right here, right now, even though I may have other things that need to get done, this is what matters most.


-jen

in a funk

flashback of baby gabe

yesterday was a good day. I cut out a bunch of pieces for Beans.  I felt really inspired.  Putting together different fabrics came easily.

then there was last night.  I got pretty emotional last night.  I don't remember the stages of grieving, but I'm pretty sure I went back to the anger stage.  I wasn't necessarily angry, as much as I didn't think it was fair, she was too young, I am too young, Gabe is too young.

I woke up feeling better.  I didn't have to work today so I was determined to get some sewing done. However, my sewing machine hates me.  The bobbin was jamming.  I refilled it (twice!).  It wouldn't load correctly. I finally got it to load correctly, and now the other thread keeps ripping. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY MACHINE?!?!?!

so, I was going to cut out more pieces, but I just don't feel inspired. No fabrics are looking good together. I'm pretty sad (maybe discouraged) that no one has bought any of the new Beans. I want to buy a new machine, but if the Beans aren't selling then what's the point? I hope this funk doesn't last.

Wordless wednesday

Hey! It's Wednesday again! That means its time for my favorite kind of post, one filled with cute pictures of gabe. Last week, Molly was home for fall break. Gabe and I were so excited to see her and spend some time at Wagner Farm with her.























I still can't resist a shot of a sleeping kiddo. They are just so cute!



-jen

So much for blog-tober

I really wanted to challenge myself by blogging everyday in October. I did pretty good the first week, and then not so much. I feel like that is the story of my life. Take exercising for example, I'm so good the first week or so, and then I totally give up.

I guess that makes me seem like a quitter. I could list all of the reasons why I didn't blog, but those would just be excuses.



I have done other things that i normally wouldn't have done. Wednesday for example, I had a wine night with my sister in law and Mildred. Then Friday, I packed up gabe and drove to Frankfurt to run errands with Alli. Normally I would have passed on wine night and just sat at home on a day off. So maybe I didn't blog, but I did do other things out of my comfort zone.


-jen

Brookfield zoo

We had a really nice family day on Sunday. We went to Brookfield zoo! I personally think that it is closer to our house than Lincoln park zoo (and I just like it better). We have passes, and I really want to get the most out of them.











We went to the dinosaurs alive exhibit. We went a few moths ago with Alli and Mia, and gabe loved it. They move and make noise, and it's really cool. This time....screaming and crying. Thank goodness it was only $7. He wouldn't even let Sidney take a picture of the dinosaurs. This was the only time he was having fun with the dinosaurs, digging for bones.










He does however, love the seals. He always has. I like the seals at Lincoln park, but I love the seals at Brookfield. There's more seals and it is a cooler set-up.







Gabe is super easy to please sometimes. At the zoo or museum, all it takes is something from a mold-a-Rama machine. This one was a kangaroo.




We ended our trip with a little something special for my mom. As long as I can remember, my family has eaten at Russell's. We love it there. I can't get enough of the BBQ sauce. There's a russell's (THE RUSSELL'S) on our way home from the zoo. We ate and talked about our family trips to Russell's. It was really nice and I know that mom was smiling on us.

-jen