Saturday, September 28, 2013

It's going to be a happy day

Today is gabe's third birthday. I don't know where the time has gone. It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that we were in Hawaii and I was super pregnant. Of course, today is also bittersweet. We are having another huge party, my mom would have been upset if we canceled it.

Gabe's favorites:
Mac and cheese
Construction trucks
Garbage trucks
Fire trucks
The iPad
Paw patrol

Gabe's dislikes:
Anything that can seem scary, the shark from nemo, Halloween
Most vegetables and fruit
Sleeping in his bed


Thursday, September 26, 2013

Taking time

I want to get back into blogging, i think it will really help me. But, at the same time, I need to take some time to gather my thoughts.

I want to take a moment to thank everyone for all of their prayers and support. It has been more than I could have ever imagined and it has helped tremendously. I am so glad that my mom was remembered so fondly. I am going to miss her more than I could possibly say.

Watch for some new posts next week! (I hope!)


Thursday, September 12, 2013

Sidney's 15th bday

It's hard to believe that Sidney is turning 15 today. It's also hard to believe that I've known her for fourteen years. She is the daughter that I will never have. I hope she knows how much I love her.

Some Sidney facts:
1* she made the freshman volleyball team with ease

2* she loves her record player

3* the Beatles and jimi Hendrix are two of her favorites

4* her favorite color is green

5* she is an amazingly talented artist

6* she loves sushi (thank god someone else in the house does!)

7* she has two dogs at her moms house and two cats at our house

8* she's been to more places than I have, Rome, Venice, Paris, costa rica

9* she didn't want a baby brother or sister, but can't imagine life without gabe

10* she can teach herself songs on her guitar

She is an amazing girl and I'm so glad that I have been able to be apart of her life.


Monday, September 9, 2013

Feeling better about things

On Thursday, when we found out about mom having more cancer, I sunk into a deep hole. The funny thing was, I was feeling sorry for myself. I felt numb and I even wrote about it (although I didn't publish it).

It took a day, but I realized that I was being selfish and not supportive. I can't wallow in my own personal pity party. My mom needs me to be strong and help her be strong. I woke up Friday with an entirely new perspective. I hope I can continue feeling this way, because it is really hard to sink and feel sorry for yourself.

Another strange thing was happening on Thursday. I was reading a very sad book and so it made me even sadder. Does that happen to anyone else? I can get totally swept up in a books emotions. If a couple is fighting, I will get mad at Jorge, so weird.


Thursday, September 5, 2013

Update on mom

My mom is at the doctors office right now. She had a check-up after being treatment free for the summer (not cancer free, just no treatments).

A month or so ago, mom started feeling not so good. I figured it was because she had an intense two weeks with gabe while Jorge was in the hospital. She had a cough, but went in for a ct scan and things looked ok. She and my dad went to Florida for two weeks (we were supposed to go, but couldn't because of Jorge being sick). When they came home, she didn't feel any better.

Today, they did another ct and found that the cancer in her lung was still small (the radiation was working), but, there was a new spot near her windpipe and in the lymph nodes there. There will be more radiation, more chemo. That's all I know for now. I wanted to be able to let everyone know.

Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts before. We could sure use some again. My mom's a tough woman so I know that she will pull through this.