What a week!

I feel like I have been all over and yet no where this week. Does that even make sense? Well, it has felt like a very long week, with not a ton accomplished. I think this is mostly because Monday kinda started shitty. Lots of crabby, sleepy people in this house!

Tuesday, poor gabe woke up with a ruuuuuuuuunny nose. I think we went thru a whole box of kleenex on Tuesday alone!







The poor guy has been so runny this week. Luckily, he has been using tissues but, his face is still really chapped.

Today, I was so thankful for the sun! We got outside for a little bit while we waited for conor at the doctor. Gabe didn't want to leave. I can't wait for more days like this. Although, it was really nice that we were the only people at the park.








-jen

Something's wrong...

Something was wrong with gabe last night. He woke up and started screaming and rolling around and saying "I hurt! I hurt!" When I asked him where, he put my hand on his stomach. He did this for probably an hour. He'd fall asleep and then wake up screaming and rolling. I'm not sure if he was having the worst night terror ever or if his stomach really did hurt. So far, he seems fine this morning, although both of us are sleepy. I hope tonight is a better night.

-jen

Throwback Thursday

This isn't much of a throwback, but it was a few weeks ago when we had a snow day. I was determined to do one of the hundreds of pins from pinterest. I really wanted to do something with food coloring. Then, I realized I didn't have any. I could picture it, but I couldn't find it. I settled for taping a long sheet of paper to the dining room floor and letting gabe color all over it.




















It was so much fun! We would color and then play and color some more. The best part was that it really helped gabe get better with his colors. I hope he loves art as much as he loves music.

-jen

Motivation...such an aggravation

(thanks sum41)



I have definitely been lacking any motivation lately. I haven't blogged in FOREVER, I haven't made any cards, I haven't exercised. When Jorge takes gabe upstairs for bedtime, I sit on the couch and space out, sometimes for two hours. Then, when I get in bed, I get all of these ideas. This sucks.

I really want to change what's going on. As far as blogging, I don't know how many people I have invested in my blog. And yes, that does make a big difference. I blog for myself, but I do blog for others.

As far as my cards go....I was so disappointed when no one showed any interest in them. Part of me feels like what's the point? But, I did feel so good when I was making them. Before when I made cards, I had a buyer, now I don't. I can't wait to make Christmas cards, then maybe I'll have some interest.

Through all this semi-depression, there has been a light. Jorge has been encouraging and of course, there's gabe. I hope I get motivated soon, for their sake and mine.





-Jen

Body image

So, ever since I was pregnant (so almost three years) I've been having even more body issues than ever before. I know that I've always had hang ups about the way that I look...well once I hit my 20s at least...but I've been in a really low place since pregnancy.
I'm sure I've mentioned it before, but I was up to 202 for my highest weight (while 9 months pregnant). I lost some weight with all of the pumping I did, but the weight didn't really come off until Gabe's first summer. By the end of summer 2011, I was around 160. Now, I'm around 155. I lose a few pounds here, gain a few pounds there, and always seem to wind up back at 155. This is about 20 pounds from where I'd actually like to be.
Every weekend I complain or ask Jorge if I'm fat. I don't like my body, I don't like the way clothes fit my body, no matter what size I buy. *on a positive note, I don't wear yoga pants everyday anymore, sometimes not even once a week!* Back to my point...I think that my unhealthy body image has rubbed off on Sidney. I noticed that she didn't eat a lot this weekend. Then, Jorge and I learned that she joined a gym, and not as a family membership. She asked her mom to join a gym. She is athletic and not overweight or unhealthy. Her mom makes healthy meals all of the time. I try to make healthy meals, not super super healthy, but not take out all weekend long.
I feel so bad that my bad body image has rubbed off on her. From this moment I am going to try to be a better role model for her.
-jen

Update on mom

My mom has been doing really well since the last update. Well....there was one minor setback...she did have an allergic reaction to her second round of chemo. She felt like she couldn't breathe, felt a sharp pain in her lower back, and was overall pretty scared.

Thankfully, they were able to give her lots of steroids and benadryl, and stop the reaction before it got worse. The result is a new chemo regime. She will still go for a larger/stronger chemo every three weeks. However, she also has to go for a smaller chemo every week.

She has gained some weight, and by some I mean a pound or two. But, my mom was always on the thinner side. She has not needed a transfusion or fluids since last time. And the best news...the tumor has shrunk and there is no cancer in her brain.

All in all, it has been a good journey so far.

-jen

What I've been up to...

I realize that I haven't REALLY blogged in quite awhile. Even Jorge asked me "you still do that?!" It's been hard. I have the iPad taken away from me almost every time I have it in my hands.

(go ahead and say what you want....gabe does learn from the game he's playing on it so at this point I'm not going to take it back from him)

I have also been busy at work and busy at creating some new cards. I'm pretty excited about them. I've created a separate account on instagram for them. So far, not a whole lot of interest, but I hope that will change.

Here's a little look at what I've been up to...






























I've been working on a few more, but I wanted to give you guys an idea of where I've been.

*Let me know if I can do anything for you*


-jen