Tuesday, September 27, 2011

A year later....

I don't know where to begin. This time a year ago I was making sure that I had everything ready to be admitted to the hospital. I was being kinda bratty and the doctors finally agreed to induce me a week early. I think they were just tired of listening to me twice a week. However, they were the ones who kept making me come in so often!

A year ago I still had not committed 100% to naming him Gabriel. I had a few names that I liked that I was going to spring on Jorge if I felt like he didn't look like a Gabriel or an Alexander. A year later I cannot imagine gabe being any other name.

A year ago I was afraid of being a mom. I was afraid of a newborn. Now, I am still afraid that I'm not a good mom sometimes, but I think gabe is turning out Ok. He is walking and talking and sometimes even responding to questions!

A year ago I weighed 202 pounds! Oh my god! There was not a gigantic baby inside of me. Why was I soooo huge?! Since dropping thirty pounds rather quickly in the beginning because of water weight and breastfeeding, I have gotten stuck at a few different weights. Now I have lost almost twenty pounds since June! I'm only twelve pounds away from what I weighed when I went in for my first ultrasound.

A year ago I didn't know I could love someone so much. I would do anything for gabe. He means everything to me. He has a better wardrobe then I do! I didn't know that seeing him walk for the first time would bring me to tears. I also didn't know that I could be so concerned with how much one little man ate or drank in a day. But having a baby changes a lot of things in your life and in your mind and definitely in your heart.

Happy birthday baby. Mommy loves you sooo sooo much!

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Elizabeth said...

Awww! Happy Birthday Gabe!! Congratulations on surviving your first year of motherhood. You are an amazing mommy!!

Jen said...

Thanks Elizabeth !