so i am feeling a little depressed. i had a great three day weekend, but i have been thinking about getting my hair cut. i know, what is there to be depressed about getting your hair cut? well, last year, i had really long hair until i cut it around easter. i thought i looked super cute. i have always liked myself in short hair. i often go see my stylist and tell her just do what you want, because i trust her and like short hair.
well....after seeing pictures from my birthday in may of 2011, i am terrified of getting my hair cut and actually getting a little sad thinking about the way i look in general.
|a few weeks ago|
i step on the scale and it hovers around the same number that it has for a year. it's a whole lot better than where i started, that's for sure. but, i am not happy. what am i doing about it? honestly, not a whole lot. i am trying to eat less, not necessarily better. it's hard when i watch jorge enjoying tons of food, to realize that i cannot eat like that still. i am not working out. however, i am going to start walking one-two times a week with my friend megan. we are going to start small and hopefully, it will show results. also, i have been denied by my insurance, for my breast reduction. i hope to lose some weight between now and when i get approved so that my smaller breasts with be in better proportion with my body.
*ugh ugh ugh*
im sorry for venting. im just struggling here a bit and looking at old photos and thinking about a face framing hair cut was giving me some anxiety. i hope that now that i have gotten it out, i will feel better about things. i am not getting my hair cut right now, a hair cut should not give me such anxiety so i think it's better to wait. hopefully the walking with give me a more positive outlook and having someone else relying on me will keep me motivated!